all and nothing

i have so much to say ... i want, I need absolutely to reach out and not to be alone. Yes I am loved, but i can feel so alone, so empty, so superfluous. Why, how, can it be so hard to connect? Truth be told I probably have nothing to say and it seems no one to say anything to lately
Unfortunately I am not much in the way of likeable these days so it makes sense to be in this place even if i don't know how i got here -- it's always like this at christmas.
Empty is the worst place to be but tomorrow is another day.