artnot

Words imprecise unfamiliar complicated
imprecise artistic transliterations
to illustrate any dreamers
thoughts
no mere approximations but only
things indescribable
for lack of words the use of which
render bluured the dream
Ayy dream

Making fun, ruinous fun

There is no art
Only paint and words
the subtlety of nuclear explosions
And blood

Only blood will do.

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i can't do any
more writ
ing be
cause
i
have not
to say and i
might run out
of
room to say if once
words come or
thought to be
and
i don't
have time to
read every
thing
they say
in
response to
my
nothing
ness
isms

no se

Morning to night walking round
a thought in my head

Go ahead and say it the others
In the corner sitting with their concepts, their precepts
I sit but cannot know how it is they learn
I understand none of it
I tested their feelings and failed
Magic is not i must but i can't

It is no matter that you again are sure to be absolutely right
But then I came late, hating the knowing
the making of a living and not just to be
before that great committeee an urge to vomit my ending truths
instead we shed those those things like a mocassin's sin in the jungly overgrowth
Yet the index remains there for the committee
for you
waiting to be found

It is not just only you and me but there are
others hiding in the woods, behind my cerebral cortex.

Who knew.

not me

one of themm a father tied
one rope fr the sky thinking like
that he said is a sin but to be
saying things like
that worse than sin
how worse than I don't know

Pummelled like a piñata
a father I heard say
said some breathlessly sin
removes you from god
your father
wondering how many fathers to make just one
life and then but only later if sin
removes me from god then how
can talking be worse than that?

perhaps that then is why even
now our ghosts are bruised

Meme les pigeons vont au paradis

thought after

When I leave I will go off
as a note.
Only one or a piece.
There will no offerings.
Of course providene and all that has a place.
Things that have no name.

"Long ago and many years was my my music taken."
Who would listen to such talk from a man like that?
Much less a vaguness called girl.

Perhaps
it just vanished like the tide.
That one no longer able to be with that she gone
so went
the music
Many
unrecognizable by choice then
became and the music
simply departed
it wasn't the farewell he hoped for

hospital sunday

fishes bubbles
on the surface only one
producer of grand babies
two two year olds
i love you
he makes a good hamburger
beeps and songs and buzzes and all the other
electronic detritus
it's a whiz on sunday
cause the lines aren't that long
or young
babel babbles
bot never The Test
only children and food and family that
no one knows, will never be seen or maybe
isn't even
all this easy talk covers the not talking thant can't be and
is not allowed
some more full of himself than others and
he's not even wearing boots
still the fishes bubble so they
for one or however many is there
can leave alive or
naturally dead

and i'm not here either

i am not here but not there am i either.

where you are is not where i am,
else you might know where i am, or
could be, or
have been.
the human leavings incapable of cleaning.
wiping free of memory, of
thought, whatever
it is this consciousness we are
blessed and cursed.

come to think of it i've no
idea not only the place of
absence but of
your being as well.

we all are hid behind our
personas crafted, disdain and aloofness, no more
joining with another, no connection, no communication.

you write you say is enough is all you deign
or have to give.

not that my selfishness was ever a secret
i am human still i think
though uncionnected yet still
selfish narcissism springs to life anew

like you.
like all the rest.

you may say or write or post as you will and i
need not be commital, you expect nothing.
i too fade away,
making no constraints.
it is after all nothing to do with me
but only you

of time we have just so much.
who am i to take of yours?

you're tight, yes,
pretending other, but then i already knew.
i am no one and
i am not here